I do not know how to begin, will just type anything that pops out on my mind..
I hate it when I got lost of words, especially when words are needed..
Words that are supposed to heal one's heart, to cheer someone up..
I can be a faithful listener and yet I cannot be a good advisor..
Just like my job, ''Discipline Advisor''..
''Oh, you do not look like one..''
Yes I know, I am not..
You came to me, hugged and then I saw tears rolling down..
It was not tears of sadness.. It was tears of joy, touching joy..
I was grateful, the cut on my finger was worthy..
And yet the disappointing part, I was speechless when looking at you..
I should've said something, but nothing came out..
At the moment when I stared into your eyes, I wanna break down too..
I reached for my friends' hand and stretched for hugs..
To get some warmth and support..
I am tired and I felt lost..
At home when I was alone, I let it out..
I felt much better..
Enjoyed playing some instrumental songs on the piano which helped in expressing my feelings..
Enjoyed my Friday routine: swimming..
Floated on the surface of water, I heard nothing but only the sound of my frequent breath..
The blue sky is so beautiful and peaceful..
I am not emoing, just wondering..
Wondering what? Nothing..